Friday, February 13, 2009

25 Random Things About Me...

This is straight from Facebook, where you're supposed to write 25 random things about yourself and then tag people who will then proceed to write 25 things about themselves and so on... I'm copy-pasting my note from there...

1. I love writing about myself. 

2. I love going on walks on moonlit nights... by myself. I love time by myself, because that's when I feel like I am really communing with myself. And also gives me time to indulge in fantasies or planning out books that I am probably never going to write in my life... 

3. I gave up on coffee because I was too addicted. I do indulge from time to time though. 

4. I don't drink but I get very high on music. Ask anyone who watches me dance at parties. 

5. I blog but I don't advertise it. I blog for 'nirmal anand'. 

6. I have wanted to be in an IIM since my Class 10. The only reason was because my dad told me at that time that the IIMs had open book exams. I thought they were a brilliant concept! That's been my only goal pretty much through my life so far. So now that I've achieved it I need a new goal! 

7. I honestly think of myself more as a tomboy than as a girl. I love jewellery, I love dressing up,but there's one part of me that still thinks of me as part of the 'boys gang'. Hangover from childhood I guess. I've always been better friends with boys than girls since I was a little kid. I think my dad finds that weird for some reason. 

8. I think my ideal job would be as a film critic. I love to watch movies, I love to write, I love to give my opinions. It's perfect. 

9. I scored an ENTP on my MBTI. That's the same as Akil. Apparently the chances of two siblings getting the same score are extremely remote. I guess we're exceptional in more ways than we thought. 

10. I think music is the answer to every ill that plagues the world. And it is the most universal thing in the world. I say I associate with music from the time my mom was pregnant with me (like Abhimanyu in the Mahabharata!). Apparently I used to kick her everytime she used to sing. 

11. I tend to over-analyse and over-think. I keep thinking about what I did yesterday, what happened today, what he/she said, what it actually meant, did it actually mean more than what it seemed - and am I over-reacting to something that is actually pretty simple etc etc till I drive myself mad. 

12. I am straight. It might not seem that way at times, but I am. I am also very fickle. I fall in love with every second guy I see on TV. I even find the lion from Chronicles of Narnia hot! :O 

13. I love computer games. I think shooting games help you relieve your stress, NFS and Road Rash help build your reflexes, AOE and FIFA Manager make you think, Hidden Object games build your concentration and Sims is around only for time pass, but is so awesome! 

14. I confess, I love romances. I love it when the hero and heroine end up together. And when the book is over I go, "Awww, that's so sweet. But they are so different. I bet it won't last". That's when the cynic in me overrides the romantic. 

15. I am a mass of contradictions. That's obvious from the point above. I am also capable of being highly childish one second, and highly mature the next. I can be quite the selfish brat at one point, and a caring concerned soul the next. And then there's also the tomboy vs the girly-girl. My computer files are usually the best organised, my room is an ABSOLUTE mess. Sometimes I think I have multiple personality disorder. Sometimes I am convinced that is so. 

16. I don't believe in love at first sight. It's bullshit to say you love somebody you see for the first time. Come on, you don't know their name, or anything about them, or whether you'll be compatible, but you know you want to spend your life with them?! Please! I think most marriages fail because of this kind of romantic notion of love. It's more important to build a relationship and sustain it. 

17. I believe in something that I call 'click' though. While you might not fall in love at first sight, I believe you can 'click' with someone at first sight... well, maybe not sight, but first time you speak to them. First conversations with people - any person - are the most interesting thing. 

18. There are few things in the world that are as good as chocolate. For anything. When you're feeling down, when you're feeling out, when you're happy, when you're hungry, when you just feel nothing but want to do something for the heck of it... just have a chocolate. 

19. I am in a relationship. With my iPod. I love the darn thing. I don't feel like going anywhere without it. I carry it around like a baby. I can't stop listening to it. Sometimes I wake up in the night, look at it and smile. I know, I am crazy. 

20. I cry at movies. Especially SRK ones. I still cry everytime I see Kuch Kuch Hota Hai, but I think Kal Ho Naa Ho is my favourite crying jag. I think that movie is awesome. Everytime Aman goes running to the bridge and hugs Naina and tells her "main tumse pyar nahin karta", something inside me snaps. I can cry for hours after watching that movie. 

21. I also cry at happy times. I have cried everytime Michael Schumacher won a Championship since 2000. I cry during episodes of Friends - the one where Monica and Chandler propose to each other, the last one when Ross and Rachel finally get together... I love Friends. It's the most brilliant show in the world. 

22. I love TV. Especially my TV at home (in case I haven't bragged about it to you, it's 40 inch LCD with a home theatre system). I can watch TV for hours and hours together. I even like Hindi serials. Especially to poke fun at them (though I used to take them very seriously at one point). I can switch channels at an amazing speed. My mom and dad both hate that. 

23. I love Europe more than the US. I've always been fascinated by the amount of history and culture that Europe has - France, Italy, England, Greece, Spain, Scandinavia... I think it might stem from the amount of reading I do. Or the fact that I love history. Or that I played AOE a LOT when I was a kid. :P I was pleasantly surprised by the US when I went there though - especially Washington. But the most enduring memory of the US for me from that trip is the first morning I was there. I walked out onto the road in Detroit and it was absolutely gorgeous. Quiet, peaceful, green... lovely. I wouldn't mind living in the US at some point in my life. But Akil claims it's got more to do with the fact that they have dishwashers there rather than any deep appreciation of beauty. That might actually be true. :P 

24. I am highly impatient and impulsive. I usually don't think things through before saying them. Sometimes that is STUPID as hell. But I can't get over it. I also can't wait to do things that I REALLY want to do. It's like "I want to do it NOW!!!". That's probably the Arian in me. I am a complete hardcore Arian actually. Reading Linda Goodman's Sun Signs about Aries was like reading about my life. 

25. I have never started so many sentences with 'I' before in my life! Makes me feel like a complete narcissist. I have also never been so random in my life - though I am at all times extremely random. This was good fun though. Hope people who I tag actually write something too.

Friday, February 6, 2009

Aye Zindagi Gale Laga Le

Got through foreign exchange. I'm going to Sweden!!!
On a sober note though... one more song from Sadma as I listen to it... So much meaning it's always had for me... It's not the most apt thing right now... but a blog with song lyrics without this would be really unimaginable for me...

Music: Ilayaraja
Lyrics: Gulzar
Singer: Suresh Wadkar

Aye Zindagi Gale Laga Le...
Humne Bhi Tere Har Ek Gham Ko Gale Se Lagaya Hai... Hai Na

Humne Bahane Se... Chhupke Zamane Se... 
Palkon Ke Parde Mein Ghar Bhar Liya...
Tera Sahara Mil Gaya Hai Zindagi...
Aye Zindagi Gale Laga Le...
Humne Bhi Tere Har Ek Gham Ko Gale Se Lagaya Hai... Hai Na

Chhota Sa Saya Tha... Aankhon Mein Aaya Tha
Humne Do Boondon Se Man Bhar Liya
Humko Kinara Mil Gaya Hai Zindagi
Aye Zindagi Gale Laga Le...
Humne Bhi Tere Har Ek Gham Ko Gale Se Lagaya Hai... Hai Na

Monday, February 2, 2009

Sapnon Se Bhare Naina...

I'm back... consecutive days! Some kind of record for me!
Today it's all about the kind of things that make you go... What If.
I have a lot of what ifs in my life. For various things. Many of them are really small things like what if I hadn't bought tons of food in Reliance Fresh or what if I had not drunk that whole bottle of 7-Up at the NC today.
But some of them are life-changing. What if I had done better at college. What if I had got through A, B or C (though I am VERY happy I am here!). Today's recurring theme has been what if I got better grades in Term I. Something completely unexpected happened - I am eligible for foreign exchange. At the end of the first term I never thought that was possible. Then second term happened. I have no words for second term. Because I wouldn't know what to say. Suffice to say it turned out to be something I never imagined in my life it would be - a life-changing experience. Summers. Grades. And now because of it, an outside chance of foreign exchange. IN EUROPE.
And now I have this huge what if of first term. What was I even doing then?! If I don't get to go on this, I'll have no one but myself to blame.
The worst part? I was thinking I won't go... but now I REALLY want to go. And there begins the cycle again. Of what ifs.
Song from Luck By Chance again that I fell in love with. Beautiful music and poignant lyrics. And again, AMAZING singing by Shankar Mahadevan.

Music: Shankar-Ehsaan-Loy
Lyrics: Javed Akhtar
Singer: Shankar Mahadevan

Bagiya Bagiya Balak Bhage, Titli Phir Bhi Haath Na Lage
Is Pagle Ko Kaun Bataye, Dhoond Raha Jo Tu Jag Mein 
Koi Jo Paaye To, Man Mein Hi Paaye
Sapnon Se Bhare Naina, To Neend Hai Na Chaina

Aise Dagar Koi Agar Jo Apnaye
Har Raah Ke Woh Anth Pe Raste Hi Paaye
Dhoop Ka Rasta Jo Pehle Jalaye
Mod To Aaye Chaaon Na Aaye
Rahi Jo Chalta Hai Chalta Hi Jaaye
Koi Nahi Hai Jo Kahin Use Samjhaye
Sapnon Se Bhare Naina, To Neend Hai Na Chaina

Door Hi Se Sagar Jise Har Koi Maane 
Pani Hai Woh Ya Reth Hai Yeh Kaun Jaane
Jaise Ke Din Se Rain Alag Hai
Sukh Hai Alag Hai Aur Chain Alag Hai
Par Yeh Jo Dekhe Woh Nain Alag Hai
Chain To Hai Apna Sukh Hai Paraye
Sapnon Se Bhare Naina, To Neend Hai Na Chaina

Sunday, February 1, 2009

O Rahi Re...

I'm sitting and studying and listening to music as usual. And I heard this song from Luck By Chance. I was struck by how it just made so much sense. I always talk about choices in life and about what Dumbledore says in Chamber of Secrets about how your choices determine what happens in your life. This film, Luck By Chance, is about that too. The choices you make. And how they change your life forever. And when I heard this song, I was just struck anew by how true it is - your choices make you. I've made certain choices - and everyday I make more of them. Each day, each hour, each minute, each second. And not all of them are good choices, not all of them are choices which I would be proud of, looking back at them. But all of them were, are and will be important. Because they also go into defining who am I and what I do or what I become. And more than remembering them - it's about not forgetting them.

Here are the lyrics of the song...
Music: Shankar-Ehsaan-Loy
Lyrics: Javed Akhtar
Singer: Shankar Mahadevan

Jaad Uthe Hain Raaste, O Rahi Tere Waaste...
Teri Zindagi.. Tujhse Har Ghadi.. Aur Har Kadam.. Hai Yeh Poochhti..
Rahi Dekh Raha Hai Tu Kya, Har Har Disha Hai Raasta..
Bol Tera Hai Kaun Sa Rasta, Rahi Re O Rahi Re
Kisi Ko Nahi Hai Pata, Rahi Re O Rahi Re, Kahan Jaa Raha Hai Bata

Ek Raasta Kaaton Ka Hai, Ik Rasta Phool Ka
Tujhpe Hai Kaun Se Tu Raaste Ko Chune
Ek Raasta Hai Soch Ka, Ik Rasta Bhul Ka
Tujhpe Hai Tera Dil Ab Kya Kahe Kya Sune
Hoga Tera Hi Yeh Faisla, Hai Sochana Ya Bhulana..
Bol Tera Hai Kaun Sa Rasta Rahi Re O Rahi Re
Kisi Ko Nahi Hai Pata, Rahi Re O Rahi Re, Kahan Jaa Raha Hai Bata

Aasaniyan Mil Sakati Hai Tujhko Zamaane Se
Par Zara Yeh Bata Jeena Hai Kya Yoon Tujhe
Azadiyan Tu Payega Khud Ko Hi Paane Se
Phir Bata Koi Darr Mehsus Ho Kyun Tujhe
Hoga Tera Hi Yeh Faisla, Aasaniyan Azadiyan..
Bol Tera Hai Kaun Sa Rasta
Rahi Re O Rahi Re, Kisi Ko Nahi Hai Pata
Rahi Re O Rahi Re, Kahan Jaa Raha Hai Bata